Enneagram Test Results
Your variant is social
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Sunday, September 18, 2005
I HAVE A SINK!!!! Ok – before you break out the champagne – don’t yet – it’s not installed yet.
It’s sitting in the laundry room placed where it’s going to be connected – and hubby says TODAY!
He says at breakfast – do you want a short or long faucet.
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG - I almost pissed my pants!
It’s there – it’s just not connected…..
Now…as with everything – for example, when I first met him – like a month into our relationship, I said I needed to put a speakers for my nice new Kenwood stereo in my oil-guzzling, smoking Honda CVCC (yeah, like a 1979), and he says – OHHHH, I can do that for you! So I ask him how long it will take – he waves his hand and me and guffaws – oh, bout an hour…...SIX HOURS LATER and my doors are off my car, taken apart, I tell him I’ve got to go to work sometime! He does get it done, but it was a rigamorole.
This will be the sink saga, too – as almost 20 years later, it’s the predictable problem-solving pattern of my DH.
But I will hug him when he finally does get it in….and I’m sooooo close I can taste it!!!
She’s a master at this one, and she most recently threw her spiked barbs at me once again (don’t you hate that when you’re 40, your parents can still take you into a room and anihilate you with their lectures?).
I have tried to respect her sagacity (because the only thing she’s got going for her is really her experience, not that it’s wisdom, but she has lived before me), but still, there’s just things that people think that shouldn’t be said.
I take everything she says personally – after all, shouldn’t it be your mother who would love you lest you be an axe murderer? I keep thinking of Sisten Helen Prejean and “Dead Man Walking,” but to be honest, I think that if my mother were faced with a choice of $1M or me, she would honestly choose that money – or possibly the companionship of a man.
As a teacher, I am so aware of the power of words and how they can hurt. My mother thinks I am hurtful – but I had an excellent teacher.
Albeit I have had counseling for years regarding my soft spots and my mother, I still need to get over her hurtful remarks, and realize that it’s not about me – many people feel this way about her, and that I need to continue on with how I feel, regardless of whether or not I feel it “measures up.”
I guess that’s why this is on my goal list. I will be forever seeking approval because my mother puts me in the position – and most likely will do so until she dies – and I take everything everyone else says to heart.
I thought once I turned 40, it would all magically disappear – as if I would never have to deal with teenaged insecurities again, but I still need to work on this.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005